Tuesday, May 5, 2009

perspective

Carter and I found out that we were pregnant a couple of weeks ago.  While we were pretty shocked we were also SO SO very excited!
Well yesterday I found out that I miscarried. I don't really know how to articulate the way that I was or am feeling, it was a sadness that can not be comforted, it just has to take its course. I felt, and still feel sad, confused, disappointed, and anxious.  My heart hurts for this baby that Carter, Gabriel, and I will never know until we get to Heaven. It really just puts things into perspective for us.
So please excuse me if I am a little somber, somewhat not fun, and not very talkative for the next few days.  I just need to be sad....

7 comments:

Meredith - proud mama of two said...

oh girl, i am so sorry. There is a purpose in everything. Praying for you Pascha.

Megan said...

i am so sorry for your loss.

erinkern said...

I don't know how this feels, but I am very sad for you and your family. Said a prayer for peace for you just now.

Dana said...

I don't know this feeling but I am so sorry for your loss. I'm praying for divine comfort for you and Carter.

danielle said...

love you guys.

abby coyle photo said...

Praying for you Pascha. Sending love your way!

Dara Steward said...

Pascha,
I had no idea the other night when we saw you guys. I have not kept up with my blogging friends as well as I would like. I know how disappointing and sad that must be. We too are ready for another child. It seems with each passing month, the anxiety creeps in stronger. Don't lose faith or hope. God's way is best, just not ever what we expect. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. But I'm thankful that you know Jesus and have a family who loves and supports each other.